She was born in Brazil, She is around 30 y.o. She fell in love a guy when she was 18 y.o.. Her first love, he is musician, he is same age, same thoughts, and 7 years of relationship and one heartbreak. She fell in depression, lost weight, lost jobs, lost almost everything, because he fall in love with another girl. But She is strong and she survived all this, but she promised to herself never more fall in love with somebody.
She decided to fly.
She flew to Europe, first France, after Germany and now in Ireland. One heartbreak made her change her destiny. But before she flew away, she met a German guy, in the biggest electronic music festival "Tomorrowland" and they started a relationship immediately. She saw love in that blue eyes.
Christmas night, everybody happy, some beers, -20 degrees outside in Germany, and one argue start between friends where in the end, she does not have anything with that, but she heard of her boyfriend, "tonight you will sleep on the couch in the living room". After that day he never saw her anymore, and she started hating beer.
She arrived in Dublin, one year later, one night in a nightclub, she met a Italian boy, she didn't want him, that day was St. Patrick's Day, she just wanted have fun. She said no, 3 times and after that she gave her number to him, one month later he brought her to a restaurant, with flowers and asking her, if she wants to be his girl.
For one girl, with heartbreak that never had lived this in her life, even afraid, because she knew he was a womaniser and fucked half of the girls in Dublin, she said yes. They lived a intense love story, travels, dinners, gifts, weekends, friends, love and they decided to live together, and with that the end of the relationship. They were immature, just 6 months of relationship and a girl with iced heart, a girl that does not how to love, and different culture, different opinions, different thoughts, difference dreams, many argues and fights, and one Welsh guy, that talk to her in a way that nobody talked before, he likes the same things that she likes, he plays guitar and one kiss happened in the middle the way, and her heart get confused about what she wants, but she decided to stay with the italian boy, although one travel of holidays in Brazil and again a new heartbreak.
When she arrived back to Ireland she heard again from the Italian guy "I do not want you come with me to Cork, i do not want get marriage and also i do not have childrens" I saw that her brow eyes soak in tears, all her fears came back again, but that time she didn't fall in depression again.
She decided that same day to do a new thing, she slept in a Welsh bed, that night he gave her all the strength that she needed to do not get back in that relationship. She is so thankful with that Welsh, he gave her strength to get back her freedom, but she is too hurt, she doesn't believe in anyone, her heart is completely close long time ago, and him started a process to open that heart.
She is independent, she is talented, she is hard on herself, she is beautiful, she is lovely and she has her own opinion, she has the life that maybe all the girls in the world would like to have, but she does not know how to love and the guy that really wants to take her, he needs to be very persistent and very nice guy, he needs to struggle for her, she does not accept anyone, anymore!
She started liking that Welsh guy, and apparentely he correspond her, but one friday after some drinks and a messy room, they woke up in her bed, and hours later he went a road trip with a Italian girl, and again her heart was break, he was not her boyfriend, he does not need to give to her fidelity, but for her, he was special, not anymore.
What goes around, comes all the way back, she made mistakes when she was with the italian guy, and all that come back again against her. She knew that, and she knew that she needed fix all the mistakes that she made.
She put a stop in all that stories, some maybe in the future can be back, others definitely not.
She heard of her daddy, "what starts wrong, ends wrong, fix all the things, give time to you, give time for everybody. Open your heart, you need to learn what is someone to love you."
And she learned, perhaps on the hard way, with feelings we can not play, its a hard game and Whats goes around, comes around.
Now, her career is taking off, she was accepted in the master's degree, she learned to love herself to love someone else
And maybe that girl, is just me or you.
By Antonie, her booker/scouter
By Antonie, her booker/scouter
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